I'm Not Okay

i feel so alone. So.. yeah..

I'M NOT OKAY
I'M NOT OKAY
I'M NOT OKAY
I'M NOT OKAY
I'M NOT OKAY
I'M NOT OKAY
I'M NOT OKAY
I'M NOT OKAY
I'M NOT OKAY

Roleplay

Roleplay is so damn fun! lols. ok... bleh.

:(

I want to get the sheet music for Requiem for a Dream for piano, but I can't find it. Damn.

Monstrosity

I made this when I was bored.
It was my friend's idea, and i just made this monstrosity:

If I were sent back in time to the 1800s....

I would wear a skirt. Not just any skirt, but a short miniskirt, that's tight, like the ones some girls in my school wear that I would NEVER wear, unless I was sent back in time to the 1800s. I'd wear a tight shirt, with pictures of blood on it (I WANT ONE!!). I'd walk around, pretending I don't care. Then I would drink SODA!! I'd tip it back all the way till the last drop, tipping my head back! SCANDALOUS!!! If I'm offered tea, I'd say "Fuck off" If they don't understand, (cuz i don't know if they had curses back then, lol) then I'll tell them, "You're ugly and I don't like you!" I would eat without sitting straight. In fact, whenever I sit, I will slouch down, with my arms on the armrests, or sitting on one leg, or crosslegged! I would walk around slouchy, not stiffly. I would NEVER wear a corset, nor would I wear twelve pounds worth of clothes. I would not wear gloves! And poke guys in the face, lol. I'd sing in public. Heck, I'd sing LOUDLY in public! And I'd do this everyday, lol. And someone will probably shoot me eventually. Then I'd return as an incubus... or a succubus... whichever one. Just kidding, that's gross. I'd be a vampire!!! How'd I get to this?

I feel hyper

I'm just bored. Not really hyper, but just felt like writing that. I wanna go to sleep, but I'm waiting for a music video to upload on zamzar.com, so I can put it on my zune. Maybe I'll actually sleep at ten today.
:$

Home Alone

My parents left to go to a restaurant and I'm too lazy to go, so I'm left to fend for myself-- I have to get my own food, study, etc.

Hurray! He proposed!! (In the game of course)

My Family Sucks

When I received my letter about a month ago, that I had been accepted into Stuyvesant, I thought, finally, maybe they would stop nagging. Boy was I wrong.

First of all, what was my reward? I got second best score in my class, and they said that was not enough. Then I went shopping at Limited Too. Thats it. I can go there anytime, nothing special.

Now, they call me stupid, so many times, I still have to go to Saturday school, and I have piano lessons.

I have the Math regents in June, as well as Spanish Proficiency and Science Proficiency, and the Math Exams are next week.

In June, I also have to take a Math Placement Exam for Stuyvesant, for which I have to study this heavy, hideous book.

I also have to audition for Stuyvesant, which I TOTALLY did not agree to do, and is a level six test, but probably will be closer to level eight, while I am level five. My mom says try, but you know what will happen? I will be totally ruined, embarrassed, and all my work for naught.

AND I'm playing level six-eight songs, which are SO FUCKING HARD! I can't stand it. I cry every time I try because I just CAN'T GET THAT FUCKING MOONLIGHT SONATA!!!!!

And my dad keeps calling me stupid, crazy, insane, and yells at me.

Bored.

Currently listening to: Angels, Within Temptation

Lol Dane Cook is really hilarious.
I'm trying to type the lyrics of Angels, but shes singing too fast!!! GRRR. Drowning sucks. But being burned hurts too. You know what really sucks? trapped under water, while someone poured oil on top of the pool, and set it on fire. And whats worse: finding an unfiery place, going to it, and som guy punches you in the face. (Got this from Dane Cook, lol.)

AHHHHHH *screeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaammm like NAZGUL*

COP!

Today I went to the dentist, and at the train station, me and my mom went through the turning thing together. But the cops saw us and fined us $60! SIXTY! Sixty for only two dollars. I live close to my school, so I take the bus, and have a half fare card, which doesn't work on the train! It isn't our fault! Stupid cops.

GRR

Currently Listening To: My dad talking on the phone.

I am so bored. My dad has decided to change the password to the computer, so I won't be able to go on much anymore! :(

EDDIE!!!!

Currently Listening To: Call Me When You're Sober ~Evanescence
This is just some guy i met in a game:
OMGOSH. This is so strange.
EdwardCullen's real name is Nathaniel. He lives in Manhattan, and goes to Riverdale Campus School in the Bronx. He is thirteen (as he says) and becomes fourteen in July. OMGOSH, I was scared that he might be some college guy, when he told me Campus School, but it's only a high school! This may be true, it may not, but if it IS true, then it's scary. He's nice, poetic, and a fellow bookie! Obviously he likes vampires, and reads the Cirque Du Freak Series, and even bought the whole series on Amazon! LOL. And he suggested Maximum Rde, so I may read that XD. And he's really nice, unlike so many boys I know, and he obviously likes Inheritance, because I found him on the RPG site below! (No stealing!) He says he cooks pretty well too XD.
AND HE FINALLY WENT ONLINE!!!!