I cried today :(

I'm too lazy to write why, I'll just write it later

Vampires :) poems and picture :)

I did this on paint.net:

Vampire

In the dark,

Blindness ensues

Devoid of light,

Devoid of joy

You shall die in a moment

My swift shadow

Following your oh so fragile body,

As you run

Your mind is weak

You start sweating

You start screaming

But who can hear?

Who can save you from the darkness?

You know I’m watching you

You know I’m behind you

You know I’m here

Keep walking slowly

Slowly

Slowly

Don’t turn around

Don’t close your eyes

You don’t know what hunts you

But I know

No one can hear your screams,

Your beautiful cries

Covered by my silent laughter

I’m sorry

But it is only I who can hear you

Your blood is good,

I must admit

Your screams are music to my ears

I’m sorry my love

But tonight is the night you learn the truth

That I exist

But too late

Goodbye

Goodnight

Vampire

I wake in the dark
I sleep in the dark
All there ever was
Is dark
I dream of blood
I drink your blood
All I ever need
Is blood
I wish for a friend
I would kill for a friend
All I ever want
Is a friend
So how can accommodate
My abnormality?
Who can I turn to
When I'm alone?
What is there
In the dark,
Surrounded by blood,
In dire necessity of a friend?
Why can't I escape
This horrible truth
That I'm not who I was before?
That I will never be the same.
But I know
That I love you.
Oh that sweet bite
That changed everything.
But you betrayed me
And left me all alone.
So I wait for the end
But where is it?
What end is there in immortality?
What hope is there but to wait for you to come
And bring me that wooden stake
And that deadly kiss that killed my heart
The heart that with one request
Would be bleeding in your hand
Kill me now
If you would just come back to me
I would give you the world
But let me die in the end

How well do YOU know me? XD

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I got converses today!

The title says it all O.o

They're black!! YAY

Letter to My Chemical Romance

I'm writing a letter to My Chemical Romance, and this was my first draft:

Dear My Chemical Romance,

Hello, I am Anthea Chan. I am thirteen years old, soon to be fourteen in June. Of course, I am a fan of yours; I might even say I could be a “fan girl”. Which is a term I laugh at, but which I occasionally categorize myself under. Your music is inspirational to me, and I have you guys to thank that I am writing this letter. I know that this is clichéd, but you guys saved my life. I would love it if you could give your autograph, please?

I am happy to be part of the MCRmy, and I would like to welcome you to New York on May 9, but since my parents don’t approve of all the cursing and the negative content. I laugh at that, since they only heard like, one song, with like, one curse, and they say I shouldn’t listen to your band’s music. Writing this letter was pretty strange for me, since I don’t write letters to famous people. I also hope that nothing I wrote is bad in any way, I was very careful in what I wrote. It would be very much appreciated if you wrote back, but I won’t expect that much of you, since you guys must be very busy, and have your own lives.

This letter was also sort of an experiment, to see whether anyone would actually reply, or if hired people with stamps and lots of ink just stamp on your signature. When I told my theory to my friend, who sent a letter to you a week ago, she thought that that would be useless, but I’ll send this letter anyway, just to see. If this IS signed using stamps and ink, I’m fine with that, and I respect the fact that you guys won’t have time for all your fans. I may be a “fan girl” but I am an intellectual “fan girl”. I won’t be crying if this never returns to me. Well, actually, I might. I think my friend will. I think I might be crying the day you come to New York, since I won’t see you, which is pretty sad, since I live in New York.

So just stamp on the signatures if you want, I’m okay with that… J Since I’m actually supposed to be doing my homework, I’ll end this letter now… it’s long enough as it is. Bye, and please give me an autograph! J I would be much obliged.

Sincerely,

Anthea Chan

P.S. Whilst I am being a fan girl, I may as well say this: I think all of you are really talented, and really good looking. Sorry for being so obsessive… lol… O.o…. bleh…. And I named my cat Uncle Jiggy… it’s not really a cat... it’s actually a keychain… from McDonalds.

Then I decided that it was too boring and too long, so this is what I'm going to send:

Dear My Chemical Romance,

Hello, I am Anthea Chan of New York. I am thirteen years old, soon to be fourteen in June. Of course, I am a fan of yours; I might even say I could be a “fan girl”. Which is a term I laugh at, but which I occasionally categorize myself under. Your music is inspirational to me, and I have you guys to thank that I am writing this letter. I know that this is clichéd, but you guys saved my life. I would love it if you could give your autograph; please? I am happy to be part of the MCRmy, and I would like to welcome you to New York on May 9, but since my parents don’t approve of all the cursing and the negative content; and some videos I’ve seen on YouTube of some of the things you do at your concerts would scare my parents, I won’t be able to go to the concert.

I first came across your music while on a bus to Washington D.C., and I heard “Welcome to the Black Parade”. It sounded really beautiful, and was one of the few songs on Z100 that I actually enjoyed listening to. When I came home, I immediately started watching videos of you on YouTube, downloading your songs from iTunes, and drawing pictures of you guys… which usually ended up pretty badly… why are Gerard’s eyes so difficult to draw? Frank was easiest to draw, though. I messed up on a picture of Mikey; I’ll have to start over. I haven’t gotten a chance to draw Ray and Bob yet, but I might draw all of you guys together, so you won’t have to sign five sheets of paper and I won’t have to pay for too much postage (a system I don’t understand… lol.) So this letter may be sent long after the actual time I wrote this.

This letter was also sort of an experiment, to see whether anyone would actually reply, or if hired people with stamps and lots of ink just stamp on your signature. If this IS signed using stamps and ink, I’m fine with that, and I respect the fact that you guys won’t have time for all your fans. I may be a “fan girl” but I am an intellectual “fan girl”. I won’t be crying if this never returns to me. So just stamp on the signatures if you want, I’m okay with that… Please sign with anything you want, signed, stamped, or Autopenned! J I would be much obliged. Thank you for your time.

Sincerely,

Anthea Chan

P.S. Whilst I am being a fan girl, I may as well say this: I think all of you are really talented, and really good looking. Sorry for being so obsessive… lol… O.o…And I named my cat Uncle Jiggy… it’s not really a cat... it’s actually a keychain… from McDonalds.

damn thats pretty long too O.o

Back from Virginia

LOL FUN!!!

Going to Virginia

I'm going to Virginia tomorrow. YAY...

today I found out that tickets to the My Chemical Romance concert on May 9 in Madison Square Garden are still available, but my Dad probably won't let me buy them, because he doesn't approve of the language in their songs... -.- and that I have a test in June for Stuyvesant, a piano audition for Stuyvesant as well, and a piano test next week... and a swimming test for Stuyvesant as well, but who cares... I wanna go!! I'm probably gonna be crying on the day of the concert... and some guys in my class said they'd be going, and I literally felt tears on my eyes.

:(

My Birthday List

My Birthday is in two months, but this is what I want:
1. Life on the Murder Scene
2. Photoshop
3. My Chemical Romance Posters
4. The Black Parade
5. Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge
6. Art Lessons (preferably for drawing people)

I just hate today

Today, Joanna said CS Lewis was a Christian. And I'm like.. okay... i don't care.. his books are just good. And then she said it was because his friend JRR Tolkien was a Christian, and I'm like... I still don't care, his books are good too. Then she says he's awesome 'cause he's Christian, and that really pissed me off, because it made me feel like she was implying I wasn't cool. Then she said that when she dies she'll talk to Tolkien and ask him questions, and I won't be able to 'cause I'm going to hell. WTF WHO SAYS THAT TO THEIR FRIENDS??? That was quite reminiscent of this boy who used to taunt me about going to hell. I just hate people like that. And now, I'm questioning everything, and I'm very confused. And then we started arguing about religion. And now I feel like a total bitch.

I may have bipolar.

Fun Xaverian guys, lol

Today, I went to the movies with Joanna, Michelle, and some guy. We saw Superhero Movie, which was pretty funny. I'd suggest it for teens who like to laugh at perverted things, and for people who just want to have fun at the theaters and see a fun movie. After the movie, this guy, James,came to us and asked us to pick a number, and we said five, and they said some things i don't remember, and then i think one of them asked for our phone numbers. Then we started talking with this guy, Frank, and some of his friends, of whom I can only remember Rob... or Bob. And James, but Joanna said Alfredo, when asked if she could remember his name. (Alfredo is a sauce.) We talked for a while, and they were fun people to talk to. Can't wait to add them on myspace! XD And they're from Xaverian, and one girl was from Fort Hamilton. They were each about 15-16 i think.

I gave Rob/Bob my popcorn because I didn't want to finish it lol.

April Fool's Day

Me and Joanna had a theory. Long ago, there was the village idiot. He was stupid, and cracked jokes a lot, but was still, very stupid. Everyone didn't like him, just because he was different. But one day... on that fateful day... he died. Suddenly, the village was so quiet, because the idiot had no more jokes. They realized he was not only a fool, but he was their fool. Since he died in April, and no one knew when he was born, they made April first a day in honor of the fool that brought us laughter... Yeah I edited this a bit. Joanna will tell me if there are any errors.

My Chemical Romance Saved My Life

My Chemical Romance saved my life... seriously. In a restaurant, my family was arguing about whether we should go to Gramma's house. My mom was complaining about having too much work, not having anyone to help her, and said no. My dad wanted to help Gramma install something, and wanted to go, just for a while. My mom started shouting, and my dad probably got embarrassed. I got embarrassed, definitely. So we left the restaurant, and my dad asked why she had to shout, and she screamed that she was mad. Then they started arguing, so I took out my Zune and listened to My Chemical Romance at full volume. We went in the car, and they kept arguing. I started crying around the time when my dad asked me who would I choose. I didn't really understand what he meant, I just heard "...her or me?" because the music was at full volume. I didn't answer, so they kept arguing. We were in the car, so my dad pulled over near my elementary school, which is near where I live, and he told my mom to get out and walk home alone. My mom wouldn't leave, so we were there for about ten minutes. During that ten minutes, I was trying to make a decision. A very important decision which would probably change my life.


I was trying to decide whether or not to run away from home.


I was literally staring at the door, with my hand right under it, mentally fighting with myself. I was in tears, shaking, and eyeliner smudged all over the place. And as I was listening to I'm Not Okay, and I was thinking about how I wasn't okay. And I was thinking about how I shouldn't leave, that would break my parents' heart (or not..... I don't know) and some friends of mine I may not see again because they might tell. So I moved my hand away from the door handle, and just kept listening to My Chemical Romance.


But what would have happened if I had run? First of all, my dad is a pretty fit guy. He probably would have caught me after the first block. If my parent's don't notice me leave, I would have run to Joanna. But in my distraught state, I could have been attacked by someone, or run over by a bus. If I hadn't, I would have run to Joanna's house, who was in Church, so I would have waited. But then, what to do then? How would I go back? Would I ever have gone back? What if I never returned, never went to school in case someone told the police, and never would have again talked to my cousin who lives so far away in California.


And so many people would miss me, I now realize. There is more to life than just wallowing in my loneliness while working on drawings that are pointless. I have more friends than I realized, and people who loved me. And that's why I'm not running away.


So My Chemical Romance saved my life.